I don't know...

Ok, here goes my rambling for today. It's a sunny day today, a total opposite from yesterday. Well, here's my update for this week. Tomorrow, I'll be attending a briefing for the introduction of the new policy for teaching Malay Language & English Language, which begins next year, at Betong's PKG. Last Tuesday I became a witness for the canning of 2 students, who were involved in a school-fight, by our SASA (Senior Ass. for Students' Affair). And yesterday was where the good/great/shocking news comes in. I've been eager to spill it out to someone, but that someone was either too busy, or just couldn't care less. I don't quite get/understand his mind. Since I'm dying to share it with somebody, I thought I better share it here, with the anonymous reader from a tiny part of the world - YOU. So, here's the news. I met our SASA on my way to the school's office to take a letter for me to attend tomorrow's briefing. He stopped e suddenly and said "have you went up there (he pointed to the D Block)to see YOUR room?" and I answered "What?!" SASA: "Your room. You will be getting a room up there along with the head of Discipline teacher and the head of SPBT (it's a scheme for lending textbooks to students) teacher. Your room will be facing this block (Administrative Block)." Me: "Wow...But, it's not fun to be alone up there, far from almost everyone. By the way, why me?" SASA: "Well, it's because you're the head of the Prefects Body, so I think you deserve a place up there. Anyway, it was discussed with the principal and he has agreed. So, you've got a place there." Me: "I see. So, I guess you are busy, I'll see you around later. Thanks for the info." SASA: "Yeah, I have a class now. 5A. Haiya..." So, that's my news for this week. And I still manage to keep it a secret/no-news to other teachers. They'll find out later. And it's better for me if I don't have to hear to their reactions towards this matter. It's not something I've asked for myself. So why the fuss? Right? If they think I deserved it, then, maybe I do. What I really longed now is to move out to another house.

Not just another post

Today is my birthday! Happy birthday to ME!!! A year older, a year wiser. So far (as of 10.50am), nothing special happened. It's still early, so, nevermind. I got tonnes of wishes though. Even got 1 from my boss. Despite, it's Mid-Autumn Festival too. So, I guess my birthday cake this year will be Moon Cake-oriented. Hahaha. This is so much special. Although not as special as I'm expecting or have expected. Well, I don't care. Well, every year I do expected it to be special, but up til now, it's just ordinary. When will it be SPECIAL? I don't know, but it doesn't mean I won't wait. Anyway, a big THANKS to 5S2 for the birthday song today. They want to sing it out loud but I manage to stop them. I don't want it to be a big fuss around school. (5S2 - -love you guys so much - ALL THE BEST FOR SPM 2011) this year, as usual, I would like to have a quiet but meaningful birthday. It's quiet so far, but nothing meaningful yet. So, I'm waiting. Anyway, today, my special prayer goes to everyone out there who knows me deeply - GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU & THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR LOVE AND KINDNESS TO ME. And to all my Chinese readers - HAPPY MID AUTUMN aka MOONCAKE/LANTERN FESTIVAL.

ILY@143

I’ve been waiting for my life,
Waiting for you to come to live,
I’ve been longing for your love,
To come true…

Oh my baby I love you,
Oh my baby I miss you,
And the faint memory of you,
Is getting far away…

I’ve never seen you live,
I’ve never hold your hands,
But I’ve nothing to complain,
My imaginary friend…

I Love You sur le pluie,
I Love You sur le soleil,
I Love You it was meant to be,
I Love You every moment each day…

You are right there in my heart,
You are right there in my mind,
I could always count on you,
My imaginary friend…

I Love You 1 2 3,
I Love You A B C,
Love is all that I can see,
Between you and me…

I Love You sur le pluie,
I Love You sur le soleil,
I Love You it was meant to be,
I Love You every moment each day…

After Raya Break

WAH!!! It's very happening here in our staffroom. Very noisy, but only during recess when everyone is in - well almost everyone. Some are still not back yet from the break. CRK, MC, etcs... flight tickets related problem, health problem, family matters, etc... Ok, enough with that nonsense. haha. What's the best topic for today? LAZINESS to come for work! After 1 week break - not a real break for me because I got sick towards the end of the break. I felt like sh** up until right now. And I even accidentally broke my bottle of medicine this morning - there goes my nasal spray! I wonder if I can survive this couple of weeks without that bottle of medicine since my nasal polyps recently stopped by to visit me. I really felt like I'm almost dying. choi! choi! choi! BAD THOUGHTS go away!!! Hopefully from today ahead, everything will be great for me. All BAD LUCK please go far far away from me - I don't want to see you! I want to see GOODNESS, KINDNESS, PROSPERITY and all the good luck in my face!!! AMEN!!!

Duh...

Wow!! It's been a long long long long long long long long time since I last update my blog. I'd been so so so so so so so so so lazy. And that happened because I'm so so so so so so so so DEPRESSED with my life. Just because of 1 STUPID little thing, I've been suffering A LOT. 1 thing - 1 person - 1 STUPID person - although in real life that person is clever (on paper, biasa lah)...hahaha...FUNNY...duh... I don't know, maybe it's my own mistake - too nice to people around me. Serve me right. I've been nice to people ever since I'm in primary school, I don't know why, but I love the people around me, they never caused me any trouble. Only now, because of my good nature, I suffer. People start to take advantage of me...so, I SUFFER.

Tears of Heaven

It has not been raining here in Betong for the past weeks but during this Holy weekend it rains. Yes, it's been raining since yesterday evening up until now. Could it be the tears of Heaven above remembering the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ? Maybe. We will never know and understand the works of God. Anyhow, it's been a great wet weekend so far. It's great to have rain after quite a long drought. It cools down the earth and it cools down everyone's hearts too, believe me. My mood is quite good now compared to last week's. Well' the rain really have soothing effects I guess. Ha Ha! Ok, that's all for now. Let's enjoy our day wherever we are. God bless!

Where should I start...

Ok, I really do not know where to begin or what to blog about. It's about 2.05am now. It's Easter, and it's Sunday. It's really been a while since my last post. I'm more to Facebook-ing nowadays than blogging. I know It should not be like that since blogging is a better way to share my thoughts but with Facebook, I can reach to more friends who actually know me. I do not even know if there are my acquaintances that actually blog, they seldom talk about it, but when it comes to Facebook, everybody seems to be using it. Well, most people dislike to write longer than 2 sentences, that's why they choose Facebook rather than blogging. After all it is easier and faster to reach our readers via Facebook because of the Facebook mobile etc.. Well, you know it, needless for me to explain. Well, I guess that's what I have to say now.
Oh, by the way, I'll be away for 3 days beginning Tuesday til Thursday. There's this Induction Course that I need to attend for my job confirmation. It's just another way for us to waste our time actually. At least it will help me get out of this boring and stressful life here. Ok, I'll blog again soon.

The dark side of me

Ouch!! My skin hurts. Getting sun-burnt after 3 days of sun bathing is both pain & pleasure. It's painful to get sunburn but it's fun to have sports days. Sports days come with sunburn, so don't anticipate less. Haha. In another 2 weeks time, there will be another inter-school sports meet in our division and I'm involved as a chaperon, so, expect to see the darkest side of me. When it comes to sports, I'll give it all out.

It's my right!

Something happened today that put me in a vexed mode. I went to a shop here in Betong for a drink with my "little friends" this evening after a jog at the sports complex. While having our drink, about a few tables back sat my students ( I'm not gonna lie here because those students are from my prefectorial board). They were actually smoking in a public area, which is OK with the shop's and public's regulation. Since they are my students, I directly felt compelled to ask them to not smoke in the public, especially when other younger students are around. After I warn my students not to do so from my table, suddenly, the workers/waiters at the shop asked me to keep quiet. In my heart, I felt "WTH! It's my right to warn my students not to smoke, why do you have to stop me from doing that?! If you want me to keep quiet, then, you should put a "keep quiet sign on"." I was really annoyed and angry at the same time but I just keep to myself and left. Better not to pour oil on fire. What stupid things those people are doing, no wonder they only work as waiters there. One more thing they do not realise is that - they are NOT our local people. Swear to God I'll never go there again even desperately - at least not until it's a life and death situation. Betongites, do not go to PC anymore because the workers are RUDE!!!

Human: How trustworthy are they?

This is a really big issue no human can really explain it. As an old Malay saying that goes "rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain" which means although we have the same hair colour does not mean we have the same kind of heart. To make it simple, don't judge a book by its cover because the content might be different from what the cover portrays.

Here's my case: Last Sunday (Aug 22nd), something happened near the residential area I'm residing in. It involves the authorities as well. I can't believe in such a quiet neghbourhood where people live in harmony, such thing can happen. It's been spreading all over the news this few days. And for me, I'm actually quite traumatised as I've never been in such situation. A situation where a "Devil's Pact" was made between two devils who love gambling so much. Thus an innocent young blood was victimised. Fortunate or not, I was involved somehow in the incident. Such a calm night became a tragedy for the victim and a scary ride for me, my housemate and a student of mine (she was at our house to study for exam the following day). My neighbour was lucky that we were there to help. At first, we (me, my housemate and my student) were blurred by what's actually happening. After some crazy doings, we found out the answer. We fled the scene and called for help. And the devil was caught. The other devil - I'm not even sure. But I'll try to find out soon. Luckily too, no one else was hurt except for the victim. BUT, the most important thing that I want to highlight here is the "Devil's Pact" between the two devils. How can such thing happened? Giving up the one you should be loving most to a devil just to pay a debt? That's totally BS and nonsense!!! Why don't you just sell yourself off?! It was you who gamble - not your family!!! So, how can we TRUST HUMAN if your loved ones dare to sell you off?! This question is really hard for me to find the answer. It all lies in the individual itself. "Tepuk dada, tanya selera" (answer it for yourself based on your own opinion). This is a case that is still traumatizing me. I'll never ever forget it.

In the meanwhile, I pray all the best for the victim, and for all of us who still have a human's heart. For the devils: May you two ROT IN HELL!!!